April 27, 2008

Josh (my oldest son) and I went to church this morning...very late, but we made it. I was very undecided if I was even going to go. Yesterday was a very depressing day, and I was really at a crossroads this morning. I was trying to decided if I'd do what I wanted, which was nothing...or would I do what I needed to do. Well, at the last minute I make a mad dash to get ready! I'm so glad that I did...Mrs. Tina was standing at the front to meet me. She's never been to my church and wanted to surprise me. I sure was surprised and SO happy that I'd came. I felt much better emotionally after the services, which always speaks to my heart. After the service, we went to the Shell for gas, washed the car, and got some ice cream!
Josh is getting baptised today and I'm so proud of him. We've both been struggling with losing Noah in our own ways, and this is something very happy. It'll be nice to have a glorious event and a happy heart...it's been awhile. More later, after the baptisim.

Oh boy! Everything went great! Josh's baptisim was such a joyous event. Bryan did a wonderful service and it was so nice. Family and friends attended and the church had a lovely reception. Today was a great day, and made up for yesterday. I wish all days could be this nice.
I only wish that Noah could've been there, but I'm sure he was looking down on his big brother!
Noah would be proud of his butter!
Much love ~~me~~

A Christmas Card for Noah

ORIGINALLY POSTED:
Monday, December 10, 2007

A Christmas Card for Noah

It's right before Christmas, I'm all filled with joy,
Except when I think of you, my baby boy.

The stockings are hung by the tree with cheer,

And in my heart, it's as if you were here.
My oldest child is sleeping, in his bedroom he lies,

But I'm still filled with grief for my baby that died.

You see, this Christmas would have made two,

But every Christmas I know I'll miss you.
As I wrap up the presents my thoughts are on you,

And what I'd have bought if you were here, too.

A car, a ball, a red fire truck?

Or maybe a rabbit's foot to bring you good luck.
The tree is all trimmed with bright colored balls,

And decorations hang on all of the walls.

It looks so pretty - - I wonder if you see

Your first Christmas ornament, I've hung on the tree.

I bought it for you, while you were still here,

Not knowing I'd hang it with eyes full of tears.

Soon it'll be Christmas, I'll try not to be sad;

I'll count all my blessings and try to be glad.

Baby Noah...poem posted by Pam

ORIGINALLY POSTED:

Friday, November 16, 2007

Baby Noah...poem posted by Pam
Current mood: sad

BABY NOAH WILL BE IN THE HEARTS OF EVERYONE. YOU WILL BE MISSED LITTLE ONE AND WE WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR YOUR MOMMY AND FAMILY.

Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free,

I'm following the path God has laid you see.

I took his hand when I heard his call.
I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day

To laugh, to love, to work or play.

Tasks left undone must stay that way

I found the peace at the close of day.

If my parting has left a void

Then fill it with remembered joys-

A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss

Oh yes, these things I too will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow

I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.

My life's been full I savored much,

Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief

Don't lengthen it now with undue grief

Lift up your hearts, and peace to thee-

God wanted me now, he set me free.

In Loving Memory

In Loving Memory

Infant
NOAH JOSEPH SPANGENBERG

Born

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Died

Saturday, October 13, 2007

If Tears Could Build a Stairway

If tears could build a stairway,

And memories a lane,

I would walk right up to Heaven

And bring you back again.

No farewell words were spoken,

No time to say "Goodbye".

You were gone before I knew it,

And only God knows why.

My heart still aches with sadness,

And secret tears still flow.

What it meant to love you-

No one can ever know.

But now I know you want me

To mourn for you no more;

To remember all the happy times,

Life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten,

I pledge to you today-

A hollowed place within my heart

Is where you'll always be.

-Anonymous